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"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

Oscar Wilde

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Muhammad Sadikin
Malay-Muslim
Singaporean

22
currently discovering the world, and himself


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- Tuesday, July 31, 2007

h/w

nope, it doesn't stand for homework. it stands for handwriting. which, i fully realised today, is very important in order to excel in comprehensions and essays.

and all along i thought my h/w was alright. well, apparently not. darn, i really need to write BIGGER and CLEARER, lest i get penalised, or worse still, my pieces left unmarked. like what almost happened to me for the SRJC comprehension. =/

there's Chemistry written assessment on Electrolysis tmr, and RE Report is due as well. so i guess this is the point when i stop blogging? yep.

oh, and i've decided to swear off listening to Gareth Gates' Angel On My Shoulder, S Club 7's Say Goodbye and Rent the Musical's Seasons of Love for the moment, cause they bring back the fond memories of HC-APYLS (: and makes me emo much. which i don't really need right now. and in the same light, Gym Class Heroes' Cupid's Chokehold brings back much Dramafeste drama.

alrighty, out!

9:00 PM
sadikin

- Monday, July 30, 2007

reality

just completed my book review. (: yay, i feel like such an angel. hahahah. anyway, that's one more item struck off the homework list. but, there's still quite a number more to go. =/

reality sunk in today, that i am already back to the routine life of school and home. and it sure isn't going down well with me. well, sometimes i do question the need for school, schoolwork, tests and all. after meaningful and equally enjoyable "breaks" like HC-APYLS conclude. but i will always come to the realisation that it is a necessity for the pursuit of a bright future. hm, i guess what i want is just a breakaway from everything school-related. well, perhaps it's just escapism, but then again, everyone's guilty of it.

sigh, i wish i am still at HC-APYLS, with the people and all. ):

soccer was a great start to the day though. and my expository essay results have certainly given me the much needed encouragement to strive on in my academics. (:

lalalala. shan't go on too long with the post. there's much stuff to be completed by tonight.

missing HC-APYLS 2007...

sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart
is the only way for destiny

9:00 PM
sadikin

- Sunday, July 29, 2007

memories

i miss...
  • waking up every morning to see that i am not alone in the room
  • having a great company to chat with at every meal
  • tapping the HCIBS card on the reader to enter block F
  • rushing out my journal entries at the Tech Centre, and at the same time, trying to get updates on things back in school
  • the late-nights spent completing our summit reports and cultural performance
  • singing Seasons of Love as a group at the concourse
  • the antics of some that just lightens up the mood
  • just simply talking to fellow delegates and facilitators
  • and many more...
i miss HC-APYLS, and more importantly, the people.

it really is a terrible feeling, having to part ways (though only physically, i hope), after spending a whole one and a half weeks, doing things together, and even living on the same grounds. and at the end of it, knowing all that's left are the wonderful memories and experiences. really, being back home, to the routine life, just feels so surreal to me. sigh.

but i guess we can be heartened by that fact that each of us has played an important role in the summit, by just being there. all of us have played a part in making the Summit a success, and a memorable and unforgettable one for everyone.

so, to all delegates, facilitators, and teachers who made HC-APYLS possible, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU.

delegates

delegates

facilitators!

all together now!

Singapore delegates, say YEAH!

our attached facilitator - SHIWEI (:
(thanks for everything - the card and jellybeans included!)


Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
moments so dear
Five hundred twenty-five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure, measure a year?


In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights
, in cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife

In five hundred twenty-five thousand
six hundred minutes
How do you measure
a year in the life?

How about love?
How about love?
How about love?

Measure in love


Seasons of love
Seasons of love

Hwa Chong Asia-Pacific Young Leaders Summit 2007
proud to have been part of it (:


-

i feel so relieved that PBMIR-Perbayu RGS CIP went well (or so i've been told) yesterday. here's a big THANK YOU to Haris, Faizin, Hijazi and Arif for seeing it through to the end, when i wasn't around to help. (: and of course, to the RI and RGS volunteers who came down to support.


-

Dramafeste, on the other hand, was simply a disappointment. not because Being Perfect didn't win overall Best Play. well, i sure was aware where our production stood. i was just utterly shocked by the results. and let's face it, many others were as well.

in every competition, there are people who win and lose. but when you find that your loss cannot really be justified, it makes the loss so much more difficult to accept.

sigh, let's keep it at that. had a long conversation about that over a regular Coffe Bean and Tea Leaf Ultimate with Yao Guang and Mathan till 1.30am just now.

anyway, thanks guys for letting me be part of the experience! (:


-

whoa. what a rollercoaster of emotions it was yesterday.

sadness, sentimental, emptiness ):
great relief (:
disappointment, discontentment, yet accomplished =/

well, that's just life. stomachs in, chests out, guys. coz we know we've tried our best, and really, that is all that matters.

3:34 AM
sadikin

- Saturday, July 28, 2007

it's just the beginning, it's not the end

HC-APYLS was a blast! it was certainly a meaningful and enjoyable experience. but as written in the title of my post, the Summit was really a platform for individuals from around the region to meet up, and marks the beginning of a hopefully lasting relationship. the Summit may have ended, but the bonds forged will certainly be maintained and perhaps even further strengthened. the tears during the closing ceremony last night was testament to our close relationships that have been formed. (:

well, thanks to everyone who made it possible - facils and participants especially. a really big thank you for the pleasant memories the past one and a half weeks. (: let's hope we'll keep in touch yeah.

alright, will update more about it soon. right now, i've gotta get out of this nostalgic mood and focus on CIP and Dramafeste! xP

AHHH... missing the Summit already! =/

forging a world without borders...
Hwa Chong Asia-Pacific Young Leaders Summit 2007

10:32 AM
sadikin

- Thursday, July 19, 2007

greetings from HC-APYLS

hello! and so we're having journalling time right now. well, basically, we're given time to write entries in the summit LiveJournal about the day and stuff like that. anyway, doubt i'll be blogging here much.

so, just go to http://community.livejournal.com/apyls/ and read my entries there luh.

alrighty, out! and see ya guys soon. (:

8:42 PM
sadikin

- Tuesday, July 17, 2007


Muhammad Sadikin is out of office from
17 July 2007, 4pm,
to 28 July 2007, 7am.

BYE! and seeya in around 2 weeks' time!

2:47 PM
sadikin

- Monday, July 16, 2007

monday, 16 july 2007
6.30am


sometimes, seemingly inconsequential and trivial things in life have quite some impact on you. this morning was testament to that. just a few moments ago, there i was looking forward to a good day in school, and anticipating the day after, which is to be the HC-APLYS. however, what happened at the bus stop just now really got me thinking.

you see, bus 43 was as usual, picking up its passengers, and as luck would have it, one woman was running to catch it, to save her the trouble of a long wait for the next one. i had half a mind to inform the bus captain about her, but as he had just taken a glance to the back, i thought he knew. however, just as she was a step away from boarding the bus, its doors shut and the driver drove off, leaving the woman, perhaps surprised, but more importantly, helpless, as she frantically tired to signal to the bus captain, but failing in her efforts.

on one hand, i sympathised with her, knowing how crushing it is to stand by feeling nothing else but helpless, as something you do not wish to, happens right in front of you. and on the other, i felt a slight sense of guilt, knowing that my simple action, if had been executed, could have made her day. but anyway, this really got me thinking - have you ever tried your hardest at something, but just as you thought you were so close to attaining it, it just slips away, catching you by surprise. life's like that, i guess. and this is quite a harsh fact of life. you get some, you lose the others. well, in the situation above, she was barely any further than 30cm to the bus, but yet, she missed it.

you may do your best and put your best foot forward, but you must realise that some things are just beyond your control. how depressing, i know. but it is reality. so, i guess, you just have to learn not to take failures in such circumstances too hard, and to take it in your stride.

a man polishes his knife,
but in one careless night, it loses its luster

indeed.


-
and so, the 40-min rest on the 156 bus trip to school didn't happen. ohwell. xP

11:46 PM
sadikin

-

mornings!

didn't manage to get even an hour's worth of sleep. and i find myself only around halfway done with my surat. ohwell, i tried. and more importantly, hopefully, Cikgu understands.

anyway, there's always the 40-min 156 bus trip to catch a nap and rest before school starts. (:
plus, today's timetable is thankfully not that bad - english, literature, highermalay, maths, cle and pe. a happy day, actually. xP

alright, will have to get out of home soon. till later!

5:40 AM
sadikin

-

over and out

yeah! managed to complete most stuff yesterday and today. (today as in sunday, not monday. okay, fine. theoretically, that is um, absurd and nonsensical. but ohwell, i am sure you get what i mean anyway.)

so that leaves me with a few minor stuffs to settle by tonight, before i begin my packing and retreat away at Hwa Chong Institution Boarding School. well, for the Hwa Chong Asia-Pacific Young Leaders Summit (HC-APYLS), mind you.

just so you know, i'll be away from
17 July 2007, 3pm (check-in time, yo) till 28 July 2007, 8am, after which i will have to rush off for Dramafeste! (:

don't miss me too much, alright. but i know you still will! =D

alrighty, time for me to attempt to complete my surat rasmi.
ohno? xP

2:23 AM
sadikin

- Saturday, July 14, 2007

saturday

hahahah. while i'm typing this, i can already see three red underlined words. now blogger has installed an automatic spelling check thing. cool.

anyway, i wanna SLEEP. so friggin tired luhhhh. there's just much loose ends to tighten before i leave on tuesday for HC-APYLS. ladeedum. on one hand, i'm excited for the programme, and more importantly, the release. but on the other, i'm just so heavy-hearted, knowing that much will transpire in my absence. ah, mixed feelings. =/

ohwell, let's just take things as they come. let's just push a lil bit more before that break of sorts, sadikin. (:

okay, this was just meant to be a mini-entry to inform you guys that i'm still alive. hoho.

alright, sadikin over and out! (hahahah, much like walkie-talkie exchanges during AVSW! xP walkie-talkies provied much entertainment, i've realised -.-")

10:47 PM
sadikin

- Monday, July 09, 2007

i try

um. i don't know why, but i always find myself blogging at this hour on weekdays. perhaps it's because i always take a rest during this period. alright, not that it matters anyhow.

life today was just fine. non-existent highermalay, physics with a new relief teacher, maths with a relief teacher as well, literature, chemistry, and english. the killer odd-week monday, which actually wasn't too bad luh. (:

BUT the school-related work's still haunting me...

- RE Report Draft 2
- MCC CIP Proposal (urgent)
- SS Documentary
- English Portfolio

all by the end of the week! oh. and there's also Karangan (!?!?!!). -.-"

and it doesn't help that HC-APYLS is exactly in 8 days' time, with the checking-in next Tuesday afternoon. AHHH. somebody save meee...! it's during times like this that i sometimes think to myself "why in the world did i make so many commitments?". on one hand, i certainly am looking forward to the Summit, but on the other, there's just way too much i've gotta leave behind for 10 days. and it's not just the academics. like RIPB Elections, HML AGM planning, and Teachers' Day planning.

i am desperately in need of time. anyone care to spare?

=/

11:48 PM
sadikin

- Sunday, July 08, 2007

lazy afternoon

what a lazy afternoon! well, with rains and dark clouds making the mood oh-so depressing, and the temptation to just sleep in, it's no wonder. BUT, how about my Surat Berita, right?

hahahah. anyway, Live Earth has been quite entertaining. and brought back memories of those old songs like Macy Gray's I Try and Bon Jovi's It's My Life.

alrighty, back to work. xP

3:51 PM
sadikin

-

my saturday

Buckley Dramafeste rehearsal went well. (:

my MuVo^2 turned out not having any repair work done on it, due to a miscommunication, i suppose. -.-" hence saving me all of 135bucks, which i've now figured would be better spent on a new one soon, hopefully. but then again, wasted trips to the Customer Care Centre all the way in Jurong East. and not to mention, the walk there. =/

and of course,

Sister Teresa Hsu's Birthday Dinner went well too. and the press was there as well. so WELL DONE to the team of three - Benjamin Hong, Haliim and Yik Sin, plus funky Miss Alicia Goh and Mrs Cheryl Yap. (:

and thanks to Benjamin's dad for the lift, which got me home in around 20min, instead of the usual 1hour. xP

alrighty, let's continue watching Live Earth!

OH. and congratulations to Venus Williams for winning back the Wimbledon Women's Single title. (which could've been Henin's if Bartoli hadn't pull off that hustled and bustled performance in the semis). hahahah.

nights!

12:32 AM
sadikin

- Friday, July 06, 2007

con brio

so life's been alright so far. (:

had a fun PE lesson yesterday playing soccer. well, part of the enjoyment came from the fact that i was in the winning team. xP

and for today, the timetable was kinda slack. a non-existent SS period, English (simply presentations), Biology (Lab) and Physics (Lab). so it was a relatively fun and relaxed day, as you can see for yourself later. OH. and it was Mufti Day as well, just so you know.

went for RIMB's Con Brio (With Spirit) consert in the evening with Shawn and Nabil, which was good, i must admit. not just the pieces played, but also what fabulousity that was surrounding our seats. it was just so omg meangirls all over again. xP
anyway, i especially liked Snowcaps and Spanish Fever. (: oh, and they had two encore peformances. =D

alrighty, tmr's gonna be a busy day with a meeting from 8am, followed by Buckley Dramafeste rehearsal, then to Jurong East to collect my MuVo^2, and finally back to school to help out in Teresa Hsu's Birthday Dinner till 11.30pm. what a way to spend my Saturday, uhhuh.

which means, i gotta finish up some work first by tonight, hopefully.

okay then, i shall leave you with photos from today:

isaac and me

four lips and a tongue

justin chua!

nickhsien blowing a kiss xP

xiao^2 and um, something

bryan and xueqian

sarun and isaac

tablemate chenghan (who's always reading a book)

senghenk and me in bio lab

faris being studious and attentive
(yes, he did attend today's lesson =P)


so were we! (:

urgent matters being discussed by alaric and bryan in physics lab

who was he talking to? o.O

"oh, there's a camera there?"

simple entertainment - magic tricks -.-"

alright, out!

11:08 PM
sadikin

- Wednesday, July 04, 2007

okay, and so play was suspended due to rain. yet again.
we'll just have to see tmr then.

10:29 PM
sadikin

-

lifeline

hey. today went by quite alright. maybe with the exception of the headache during scouts, which was pretty bad. i guess it's due to lack of food. hahahah. perhaps.

anyway, academic lessons were good. managed to scrape through RE report, the draft of which wasn't really complete yet. well, you see, i fell asleep at around 10.30pm last night, after feeling so tired getting through the day with an hour's sleep. -.-" Anderson Secondary's student council investiture was alright, and so was scouts.

on to Wimbledon! (: hahahah. yes, i do watch tennis, mind you. and so the much anticipated Venus Williams-Maria Sharapova match is happening right now, with a rather clear dominance by Venus. so much for a tough fight, as i had imagined. and in other news, top seeds Mauresmo and Jankovic failed to make it to the quarters. oh, and by the looks of the match, add Sharapova into the list as well. xP

oh, and of course thanks goes out to Alaric for the reminder regarding what was supposed to be an exciting match.

alright, time to relax and unwind. out!

8:47 PM
sadikin

- Monday, July 02, 2007

even the best fall down sometimes

was a relatively fine day. so after Isaac left around noon, i went all the way to the Jurong East Creative Care Centre place to get my MuVo^2 fixed. at like 135 bucks, as i was informed in a phone call at 5.30pm. -.-" expensive much. anyhow, hopefully i can realise my goal to collect it back this saturday. from all the way there. yay.

then met mum and sis and um, accompanied them to my sis' appointment, then headed back home. and tada, it was already 9+pm. ladeedum.

(meet my retarded sister)

alright, out!

-
dear God, grant us the strength and courage to pull through Your ordeals.
Amin.

11:14 PM
sadikin

- Sunday, July 01, 2007

life these days

well, today was spent on Physics Performance Task at jason's house from noon till late afternoon, then to aunt's for a gathering of sorts, after which the family went out for dinner at tampines.
and that was it, a whole day burnt! xP

anyway, photos from sajak and today.

because everyone should have a chance to look pretty
(&)
retarded (:


because it is the present...

bumped into the duo on the way back from jason's
(they were from escape, btw)



on a sidenote, isaac's coming over tmr morning to complete Physics Performance Task PPT, and English Biography PPT. youth day holiday much. =/

alright, out!

11:25 PM
sadikin